Don’t misunderstand :P I meant to say, I can’t help but fall in love over and over again with……with……with……

KOREAN DRAMAS!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

Oh man!!!!! *gushing* I am in loveeeeeee…..(Even though it’s my fantasies that’s been wired in love :P ) So I am posting the lyrics of the song that I beeeecame fond of recently… :D Here goes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If I’m allowed once again
If I could see you again
Inside my past memories
Inside that pain
I call you

You’re my destiny, you are
You’re my destiny, you are
You’re my everything
I only look at you as
I call out to you silently

You’re the one my love, you are
You’re the one my love, you are
You’re my delight of all
You are my love
forever

Come to my side
If you still love me
The tears in my eyes
want you
I love you

You’re my destiny, you are
You’re my destiny, you are
You’re my everything
The thing that
hasn’t changed
is my love for you

You’re the one my love, you are
You’re the one my love, you are
You’re my delight of all

Even if the world changes, do you
know that I will only love you?
My destiny

I call out to you

GOSH! im in loveeee!!!

Disturbed thoughts…. Part I

It’s been a long time that I have written something over here…. I was busy with my project works and life. After a long gap, I got to speak with you once again. I thank my God for this beautiful chance given :) You must be wondering about the title I had given to a blog post that is been written after a long gap… Yes, you are right, my post is titled as ‘Disturbed emotions’, coz I am sharing the thoughts that disturbed me recently. There are many of them.
I will start with the most recent one. It’s gender equality. I know guys will fret at this word by raising their eyebrows, and girls may smile a bit. I know it’s an age old issue. What made me discuss about it, is the attitude of many men towards the women. I will never ever say attitude of the male race towards the female race, as it will be putting many of my good friends down. I write this to address only those people with this attitude.

I have been reading about the statements made by Mukesh Singh, one of the rapist in the Nirbhaya rape case. Those words ticked my inner soul like many others.  A rapist and a murderer was speaking about the moral of the woman he RAPED, WOUNDED AND MURDERED (well, he is uneducated thing, so there won’t be any surprises about his remarks.) It made me think about the attitude that many of the men has towards women. I am addressing these words only to those men.

“MEN, YOU CAN’T DEGRADE THE VALUE OF THE WOMEN, WHEN IT IS A WOMAN, WHO UNDERWENT THE WHOLE PAIN OF LABOUR TO GIVE YOU A LIFE INTO THIS WORLD. WHEN IT IS WOMAN’S CRY AND THE KILLING PAIN THAT GAVE YOU THE BREATH, YOU CAN’T UNDERESTIMATE THE VALUE OF A WOMAN, HER LIFE AND HER DREAMS. IF THAT WOMAN WHO GAVE YOU BIRTH, DESTROYED YOU IN THE WOMB ITSELF, MAYBE WE MAY NOT HAVE TO BEAR YOU DEROGATORY REMARKS ABOUT US. BUT, A LOVING MOTHER , BORE YOU FOR NINE MONTHS, GAVE YOU BIRTH, DESPITE THE WORST PAIN IN THE WORLD, NURTURED YOU AND CARED YOU. SO, HOW DARE YOU REMARK ABOUT THE FREEDOM, CULTURE, DREAMS AND VALUES OF US WOMEN? WHEN YOU ARE REMARKING ABOUT OUR MORALS IN A NEGATIVE WAY, REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE GIVING AWAY YOUR MORALS. WHEN YOU ONLY SEE US AS SLAVES AND SERVANTS OR AS PIECE OF MEAT, DON’T EVER EXPECT US TO RESPECT YOU OR LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU DESERVE. NOW THESE MEN MAY ASK THE QUESTION, HOW CAN SERVING YOUR FAMILY MAKE YOU A SLAVE?? IT WILL NEVER MAKE US A SLAVE WHEN WE DO IT FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEART, WHICH IS WHAT EVERYONE OF US DO ALL THE TIME.”

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So, it was not the evil mind of you and your friends, which decided to trap, injure and kill a woman cruelly, that was responsible. It was not you cruel hearts that decided to touch a woman without her permission, which was FAR MORE responsible?

Again these words are not applicable to the entire male race, coz then I have to condemn the loving men in my life who isaaa willing to even give up their life for us, who loves us and respect us for who we are. Many of them are sweating in the hot sun, staying hungry and protecting their family by giving their life and blood. Many husbands out there, spend months away from their family, which they cherish to the core of their soul. Many fathers out there, cuddle their daughters and protect them from the evil world. Many men out there, support their life partner for her dreams, cherish her soul, protect her with his life and love her to the bottom of his heart. These men don’t have the so-called male-ish ego which says that, only if you rule your woman, you will be called a man. Instead, these men earn RESPECT and LOVE from their women and their family as the “REAL MAN” of the family. I include, my father, many of my uncles, many of my brothers and my friends in this category. I give a big salute and respect to all the real men out there, Know that you are valued, respected, loved and cherished by the women like us :)  adios! :)

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Our life is like a grass or bubble, which is here today and gone tomorrow. Yet, we live our life like there is no tomorrow. What if we are called back into eternal glory, and is asked by Someone Almighty about the life that we led in earth? Will the teenage concept “YOLO” come to our mind? Will we regret anything??? Will we regret the moments that were given to us to spread the goodness and love but we didn’t because of selfishness? You and I are culprits of such a thought.

I simply meant… Our life is short. We do not know its end. So Live your life in goodness and love. Spread Godliness, cheerfulness, happiness and helpfulness among each other. Do good when we can.

Be wise and spread the sunshine..

GOD sent me for YOU! :)

The name on the gravestone.

WHAT YOU BRING TO THE WORLD- NOTHING!

WHAT YOU TAKE FROM THE WORLD-NOTHING!

Then why do you live your life as if you own everything?

I am going to tell you a story. Listen carefully:

Once a Swiss industrialist, who was living in Bale, happened to cross a cemetery one winter’s day. Snow covered most of the gravestones making it impossible to read the inscriptions. Suddenly he stopped. On one gravestone sheltered by a pine tree a name could be read. It was his own name “Charles Mez”. He did not know who that namesake of his might be, whose body rested there, but the fact that the only legible name in the whole cemetery was his own made a profound impression on him. “Where would I be now? If my body, separated from my soul, lay under there.” Standing alone in the middle of that icy landscape illustrating the state of his soul, he acknowledged his sins, his indifference, his scorn for God’s love. The gospel heard on other occasions without him paying attention to it, suddenly impressed itself upon him as something living and personal. He turned to Jesus, prayed and obtained peace of heart that the Son of God gives. From that day life of Charles Mez showed that he belonged to Jesus Christ. His joy was to serve Him.

Understand just a small lesson from this. If we are born on this earth one day, we will go from this earth on an unexpected one day. Don’t wait until then to acknowledge your life and your deeds. Do not let your soul suffer and weep for the misdeeds you did on earth. This life on earth is temporary. You can see the cruelty of death around you, yet you are kept safe by the love of  God. Think how much he loves you for that. He kept you safe from evil men, lustful desires, evil traps, evil spirits, disasters, diseases, wild animals, sudden death etc.. He blessed you with a home, family, shelter and food. Think how much it means. How much it is worth. He gave a gift of Bible full of promises. So isn’t it your turn to thank Him for all that is given to you and your loved ones? Yes, that’s what God loves so much.He loves acknowledgement of  His blessings. So isn’t you turn to acknowledge Him as God?

So pray everyday, Make God a priority in your life, forgive others, Love unconditionally and “Do good, speak good and feel good.” Don’t wait for things until its too late. Start from now. Have a blessed day! :)

P.S: I am giving you two titles to have a glance. These are books written by the respective authors. These two realities opened my inner eyes. Please have a look.

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Recently I watched a Korean drama. I loved it :) I loved the songs. Here I am sharing one of the songs from the drama “Secret Garden”. If you liked this, I will share the other songs too :D [ Now, guys will pick pebbles to throw at me!] So ladies…here we go!! to all the Korean drama lovers out there CHEERS! :D

The meaning of the lyrics:

THAT WOMAN

“One woman loves you
She loves you with all her heart
Everyday she follows you like a shadow
She is laughing but cryingl
How much more How much more
Must I gaze at you like this alone
This meaningless love, this miserable love
Must I continue for you to love me
Come closer a little bit more
When I take a step closer, you run away with both feet
I who loves you, even now I’m at your side
That woman is crying
That woman is very timid
So she learnt how to laugh
There are so many things she cannot tell her closest friend
That woman’s heart is full of tears
So that woman said she
loved you because you were the same
Another fool, another fool
Won’t you hug me once before you go
I want to be loved, my dear
Everyday in my heart, in my heart
I shout out
That woman is beside you even today
Do you know that woman is me
Don’t tell me you know and are doing this to me
But you won’t know because my dear, you’re a fool
How much more How much more
Must I gaze at you like this alone
This foolish love, this miserable love
Must I continue for you to love me
Come closer a little bit more
When I take a step closer, you run away with both feet”

:)

“That woman..” song from secret garden

Depended happiness!

Sunday time!! As usual, its our day of dedication to God.. Today, I went to church. I concentrated on the Holy mass, to bring the spirit of God into me and to me fill me with happiness. Nowadays I visit the church to dedicate my lost time and faith to Jesus. Today the church prepared something for me specially. You can say God prepared something for me specially. :) . It was a beautiful session by the youth movement. After the Holy mass, there was a song session and then speeches by a priest and a preacher. I told you before, I never listen to the speeches in church, as I never thought it was anything important. {or maybe I felt it as boring. :P . personal disclaimer! er..ok..disclaimer! It is only my and my only belief, you don’t need to grab hold my neck for that!} One or two speeches are etched in my heart. I spoke about one in my previous blog post. The other one I will tell you in the future posts {if I remember ;) }. So…about today’s speech, before I forget it like a nice dream ;) let me jot it down for my future reference {and also for your knowledge}.

The priest said, “For experiencing happiness, we used to run to several destinations in life. Some to liquor, some to drugs, some to friends, some to cigarettes, some to fake loves etc.. but whatever we do, those happiness are temporary.” The preacher made it more clear. “The happiness we seek in these, will fade away as soon as these are gone. Therefore, these kind of happiness can be deemed as depended happiness.It struck me. Depended happiness, happiness that is depended which will fade away as soon as the object fades. Isn’t it true? So all my happiness were faded happiness. That is why, I lost my happiness. It may be because I was too depended on my depended happiness. *thinking*

In addition the priest added, “Grow closer to God. Establish your foundation of faith in Him. Only then, you will be able to balance your life.” Start your day with Him and end it with Him. Make Him the beginning of your life. Make Him the start of your activities. You will find Him throughout the day and throughout your day to day activities. Now that is why I am sharing this. Coz, depending your happiness in God will never fade away. It will remain permanantly. :) .

SO..depend your DEPENDED HAPPINESS IN GOD :) happy_face500b34e0afd4bec47a7851a39b462411955

A humble dwelling with exalted love of God.

As I have mentioned in my previous post, ‘His words to me…a walk to Emmaus.’ , Humble dwellings of praise and prayers may often see God. Simply it means, the sincere and simple hearted may often experience the love of Christ.

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St. Joseph of Cupertino. He is known as “The flying saint”

Today, I attended a Holy mass in another small church next to my place of residence. I needed to clear the clutter out of my mind, so a walk to Him was necessary for me. This small church was conducting the feast of St. Joseph of Cupertino. I am not a catholic (Disclaimer! : this is my own, very own belief, its is not written to offend any one’s faith! if you feel offended you can discard the reading.) So therefore I don’t celebrate the feasts of many saints. I just went to devote myself before God. I prayed. I poured before Him personally. Told Him what is wrong, asked for divine intervention. I sang the songs with others. The priest and the people was preaching about the power of the saint. I listened to the saint’s story. I have never heard about him, so I was curious. I smiled when the priest said about the saint’s flying power. The priest said that the saint was called a fool in his teen days and was rejected to the seminary due to the lack of his education. That’s when a tiny murmur in my heart whispered, “Those who pray and believe strongly, no matter what and no matter where, God will hear him and answer him. God sees the hearts. He loves the hearts.”

I know from the Bible stories that Jesus has never abandoned those who called upon Him. Those who went behind him and begged Him has always experienced “miracles”. Then why do I worry? when He Himself has told me thousand times NOT TO WORRY. Its only because of my weak faith and frail mind that I am anxious. Whatever I claim to know, isn’t anything without Him in it.

Haven’t you heard? that “The fear of lord is the beginning of wisdom.” Pro: 9:10. Yes, we have to seek and fear God in the beginning, only then true wisdom will begin in your heart (I am speaking out of experience). That is what we lost (You can rather say I lost). I am including a link to some miracles which was believed as happened. But I am stressing onto the last lines written by the author in the link

“Whatever our beliefs are, may we realize and keep in our hearts and mind the Grace and Great Love of God that He sent His only begotten Son Jesus and may we believe and live with Him through entirety.”

And keep in mind: Our hearts are the humble dwellings that God wishes to visit and live. Make sure it is worth dwelling. Coz,

   GOD SEES THE HEARTS!

 

The LoVE we LoST .to. the LuST.in us..

Prayer restores our inner lost soul, so never cease praying!

Prayer restores our inner lost soul, so never cease praying!

We lost the purity of love. We really lost the way to love purely. Each of us have encountered love in our own way. Whether it is through our better half or through the people around us. Each of us gives love according to the goodness in us. I should say or rather point out, that this goodness in us is starting to diminish.

This goodness in us have been taken over by evil in us. In case of love, the evil in us is LUST. The lust over body. The greed for money and power. These has replaced the pure love in us. True love in our heart has abandoned us, due to the occupation of the vacant space in our heart by lust.

Do you want to know why? Coz we lost God’s presence in us. God is love.

God is omnipresent. He is merciful. He is willing to forgive and forget coz HE IS LOVE. Now why am I speaking these words? It is because I happen to stumble upon something. And as usual it opened my inner eyes. Here it goes:

1 John 4:8
He who does not love has not become acquainted with God [never did know Him], for God is love.

Love can be seen, it cannot be hid. If you LOVE it will SHOW! No matter how much you try to hide love, you just will not be successful. Love is so powerful that it has to be MANIFEST.

LOVE without HOLINESS is not love but lust!

Love is not a suggestion, in fact it’s a commandment. Love is the essence of a transparent godly character. Love is so awesome that when we exercise love, love begins to flood out of our spirit, soul and body.

When the LOVE of God is present in our lives, it enables and encourages us to be pure, it releases purity.

2 Timothy 2:22
Shun youthful lusts and flee from them and pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace in fellowship with all, who call upon the Lord out of a pure heart.

Holiness is connected with Love, and when we make the connection, we will be able to live a HOLY life filled with the LOVE of God.

Listen to your soul. For it cries out to you. Listen the pain in your soul. For it needs love and wants to give love. Then who are we to stop it?

Light allows us to see things clearly, when begin to walk in the Light of Christ, we allow the light to shine on us and through us. The light shows us stuff that needs to be cleared out of our lives so that the brilliance of the light might shine out unhindered.

Without knowing God first, You cannot know pure love. No matter how much ever you claim to know!

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Let our love be of God, heart and soul rather than body. Let it be eternal. Let it remain forever! Let it never change!

I write.to.express me…

When I write, I bear my soul. I cleanse my mind. I expose my inner thought world and in that way, I expose my inner self as well.

That’s why I write.:). To relieve the pain inside, to share the message I get from God and life, to help people I encounter, (If I can inspire them with my writings ;) ) to cleanse my soul and most importantly to balance myself.

Or else I would keep the clutters in my mind, thinking it over and over again, without speaking it out and I may lose my state of mind. Writing has helped me a lot in maintaining my mental and physical sate of balance. Opening up the views of my inner soul means a lot. Yet, it clears the mind to think more. While I re-read my writings, I get hope and positive energy to pursue in my life. So you can deem it as an helpful gift from above.

I write coz, I talk a lot. While I talk I share my ideas and views with my best friends. I feel more people need to know them. Coz that’s the way I wish to inspire the broken hearted. I write coz there’s lot in me to be said. I write coz I love to share my views and my heart. I wish that one day I would put these words to actions. Thereby I may relieve my purpose bestowed upon me by the Heavenly one. “To smile, love, share and help”

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His words to me.. “The walk to Emmaus”

Whenever failure, worries,despair and depression strikes me,  I tend to rely on darkness to destroy me. Yesterday, with this darkness in me I went to the Sunday mass. I was in despair. I bowed down and asked forgiveness. But desperation always took a toll in my life. I want to be heard. But I didn’t move my lips. My eyes spoke for me.Faith

What I loved about this church was, It was a humble dwelling for God. Its just a shed. A small shed with the Altar. It was small and sweet. As I know Jesus dwells in humble dwellings (which is why He selected a manger to be born into this world!) I was sure this small and sweet shed of a church is highly exalted with God. The priest was a man of 25s or something, so I didn’t expect any great speech from him. Usually I don’t expect great speeches from anyone, but sometimes God speaks to me through these speakers. So yesterday when the priest was reading the chapter on “The walk to Emmaus” I didn’t flinch. I was sure that as usual they will read a verse and twist it according to their speech. I was not in a mood to acknowledge. index

BUT. Something between the speech, or you can say the speech itself twisted my head towards the priest. I was looking at him wide eyed. He was talking about how Jesus went with the disciples through their dark moments, how He was explaining the situation and after solving how He was going to go away when they invited Him to dinner. The priest said “Through your dark moments you tend to travel only in darkness. Sometimes you may not know that He is walking with you. After solving your problems, He may tend to walk His journey. BUT. When you invite Him to your heart, He will be there, dwelling inside your heart, being the light you lost.”

It ticked me. I was surprised at the ways He speak to me. He finds His own way. Today morning with less despair, I opened wordpress and yes, there it was…This is what I saw “Be still, and know that I am God” Psalms 46:10. The writer’s words followed “Trust God know that He can handle any burdens in your life, but you must trust and obey; because there is no other way!”

Thank you God :) I love you! :)